This Isn’t Living

I’m tired of being so lonely, but with this current situation I find myself in there’s nothing I can do about it.  I’m in crisis housing and can’t leave the fucking place.  It’s unfair and I need some damn freedom!  That’s asking for too much.  Sorry about this complaining, but I have an unwanted surgery today and I’m forced to go with someone I can’t stand.

Tired of This

I’m just not thinking this through properly.  I left that place because I wasn’t going to be hospitalized eventually and I left to a place with barely any stability.  I have my freedom, but at what cost?  I hate hearing people argue.  When I think about this decision to return was I thinking that things would be different?  How stupid could I be?  The fear of being forced to do something against my will is driving this.  That’s why I have to pursue something I shouldn’t do.  That’s looking for housing.  I want to be on my own and I’ll accept whatever happens.  I want to think about things so I can move forward.  I should be working on other things first, but I need to feel at least some level of comfort.