Pointless?

I’ve been thinking.  If I want a job the odds will be against me.  Think about it this way.  I need experience and if I can’t find a job how will I gain some experience?  It defeats the person.  I wish things were easier for me.  I hate working with somebody else to help me obtain a job, but I need someone fighting for me.  It appears I can’t sufficiently fend for myself for interviews.  How pathetic is that?  I just want to find easily without being considered retarded or something else.  I want to be more independent when it comes to that.  Finding a job is the most important thing for me and it should be.  I feel like a parasite.  Leeching off of the government because of my lackluster shortcomings.  Wish me luck I guess.  I’m going to need it.  

The Only Incentive I Need

As of right now I’m done cooperating.  What point is there?  When no one believes in you and willing to help then I think it’s safe to say screw them and move on.  I wish things were different.  I should’ve never let myself go because no one in their right mind would be willing to hire me.  I need some things first and there is no way to get those things.  I’m stuck in the hands of people and they obviously don’t want me to move on.  I’m stuck and that makes everyone happy.  I don’t even have an id card.  Everyone in this family gets help, but I’m left to struggle alone.  It’s unfair and then people wonder why I am the way I am.  I know I shouldn’t put blame on others, but it’s true.  I do take the blame, but I’m not the only person to blame.