Worst Decision I’ve Ever Made?

So I agreed to be in intense treatment in 2014 and that backfired completely.  If I didn’t agree to it I’d have a he’ll of a lot more freedom than I do right now.  They fucked my life up.  Now I have no rights at all and it’s unfair.  I don’t get anyone else involved with my life so why the protection?  I don’t need it.  I can take care of myself.  No one believes me though and that’s a serious problem, but I’m powerless to do anything about it.  At least now.  Just one question.  How do I Regain my freedom because I desperately need it?

Listening To: All Shall Perish-  This Is Where It Ends

Can’t Be There All Day

I need to figure some things out.  I hung out all day at my sister’s yesterday and I’m doing the same thing today.  Just the thought of living in a group home is unbearable for me.  I’m doing what I have to do and that’s it.  I won’t be there all day.  If I do then I’ll just be miserable and bored.  I need to think about what people expect me to do and why they want me to do it.  Living in adult foster care won’t prevent anything.  It will just complicate things.  If I’m miserable then I’ll feel the need to cut and if anyone finds out that I cut then I’ll have to put up everyone.  I am tired of doing what everyone wants me to.  I want to live my own life.  It’s just to bad I don’t know how to live.  Oh how unfortunate.