Losing Weight

•August 20, 2014 • Leave a Comment

I’ve lost 12 pounds in a month.  I didn’t know I’ve lost that much weight.  Now that I’m back on Zyprexa maybe that would be corrected.  I’m hoping that also helps my anxiety too.  I’ll be fine.  I just need some time to feel better.  I’m not scared.  I’ve accepted things the way they are.  This won’t last forever.  I need to be patient.  I need to eat more, but I have no appetite.  I bought pizza today and I couldn’t eat it.

Leave of Absence

•August 20, 2014 • Leave a Comment

My psychiatrist doesn’t want me working right now.  I don’t know how to feel about that.  Yeah I’ve been having problems lately, but I just need some time to adjust and relax.  How long will that take?  A week?  A month?  Who knows.  I might see a doctor to get a leave of absence note.  I have to get up early in the morning though.  I just want this to end because I’m tired of being sick.  This is just what I feel though.

I Need to Get Out of Here

•August 18, 2014 • Leave a Comment

I want out of my mom’s house as soon as possible.  I’m not happy here.  My anxiety is getting worse and I don’t know how much more of this I can take.  I have plans this week so I have to follow through with them.  I should call my caseworker later this morning, but I don’t know what to say to her.  Why is it that I’m comfortable with feeling this way?  I just don’t want to bother anyone with my problems.

Very Stressed

•August 17, 2014 • 1 Comment

I’m very upset.  I don’t want to live here anymore.  I’m having an anxiety attack and I don’t know if I can wait until my doctors appointment on Wednesday.  I have no appetite either.  It could be because of the Effexor, but this is becoming unbearable.  What can I do to relax?  I’m desperate.  It would help to talk to someone, but I don’t know anyone that would like to listen to my problems.  I feel lost.  That hospitalization was a big mistake.  It just complicated things with my job which is also another big stressor.

I Need to Eat

•August 15, 2014 • Leave a Comment

I have to eat something even though I’m not hungry.  I’m just scared of throwing up.  I still feel nauseous.  I had the sensation to throw up after work today.  It’s a good thing that I had an empty stomach.  I just have to be patient.  These feelings will go away in time.  Effexor has a lot of side effects.  More than I remember, but I never was on just Effexor before. 

Seriously Considering It

•August 15, 2014 • Leave a Comment

I might move in there.  It all depends on the tour next Friday.  I want out of here.  I’m tired of living with my mother.  It would be best if I was out on my own, but I’m not ready.  This will buy me some time.  I might like it also.  I’m not going to worry and expect the worse.  I know what happened at the last home, but I’m hoping this time is different.  I just want my own room.  That will make my mind up and location too.

Another AFC Home?

•August 15, 2014 • Leave a Comment

My caseworker wants me to be more social.  That’s why she wants me to tour another afc house next Friday.  It’s a little scary, but I’m not being pressured.  It’s just a suggestion.  Should I do it?  Is it worth the potential risk?  I wish I knew.  At least I got a hold of my therapist today.  I can talk to her about this.  I might do it even though it’d make me uncomfortable.  At least I’d be more social.  Well that’s not a guarantee.


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